End of year updates

So, I know this year has been quiet on the blog front. I had a number of personal issues to manage this year. I have come to the conclusion that 2018 can more or less suck it. I appreciate each and every one of you that have stuck with the long haul and the longer silences. The quiet was not entirely my choice. With that being said, 2019 is around the corner. New year, new goals and new horizons to pursue. Onward and upward, right?

I have a few housekeeping mentions before we move forward into the new year. The website will be getting a facelift soon. I will be adding some new functionality and you may see some new options when you drop in to visit. I am starting the revision phase of Fate’s Divide. I am excited by this particular book. Readers, the final draft may be a little longer than you’re used to. New characters will be featured. For those of you that met Layla last book, you will get to know her a little more. I hope you enjoy. Target release will be mid-October. Expect an online release party like we did with Guardian’s Redemption and signing at Gathering Volumes. That was a blast and I would love to see each of your smiling faces. I am hoping in 2019 to get myself into a few more events and adventures as the year progresses.

This year’s Nanowrimo was a different experience. I coached a few people new to the insanity of Nano. (Shout out to Mia, Eunice, Jordin, and the H&L Writes gang. I’m going to start dubbing y’all my NanoCrew ❤ This does not include the Toledo peeps I spent 2-3 days a week with. Jamie, Cass…I’m looking at you.) I was very proud of their successes and discoveries as the month went on. I hope they enjoyed the writing process as much as I did coaching them.

I think that’s it for housekeeping notes. I would love to hear from you guys about things you would like to see on the site, features, ideas. My inbox is open. I hope your holiday was wonderful. Mine was good. My husband is a ninja. 🙂 He has added to my gothic angel collection–a purchase which usually affiliated with our wedding anniversary. I had no idea. He’s a sneak.

Many of you have seen me mention the H&L Writes teams. Well, they have featured me in the month of January. You can check out that write up here. If you are a writer trying to find a direction or a community to work on and hone your craft, I could not ask for a more supportive group of ladies. It is the best ten dollars a month I’ve ever spent. You can learn more about membership and what you get by going to their site. I’ve made some valuable creative friends and it’s a great outlet–even if you’re in the “OMGIMSOFRUSTRATED” revision phase I am about to enter. Seriously. Go do it.

With that being said, I hope you all are faring well. Tell me about your holidays in the comments. Tell me what you’d love to see in the new year ahead. Until next time guys, take care.


Four days…and some discoveries.

Current listening:  Andra Day – Rise Up

So, the H&L writes theme has been rattling around my brain for most of the month.  Nothing I thought about could latch on to this idea of self-discovery.  I am four days from my only daughter’s eighteenth birthday.  I would love to say lightning struck but, in all honesty, the flow came when I was downloading baby pictures and just started bawling.  Mom’s know.  We all do.  We hope, we pray we’ve taught them enough and we just have to let them go and be their own people….and have faith in what we’ve done and in them.


I was 22 in that photo.  Yes, I was exhausted. She was 18 months old.  How mind-blowing is it to realize you’re responsible for every need of this tiny person that came out of you?  People always tell you to hang on to those little moments.  People always give you the ‘it goes by fast’.   They’re not wrong.  I wish I taken more pictures of us together when she was little. More for her than for me.   These 18 years have been as much my journey as they have been hers.   I grew into the woman I am as she grew up.  When other girls my age were going to bars, clubs, getting shit face wasted, I was having a baby.  Please don’t misunderstand, this is not a diatribe of regret.  I wouldn’t trade a single giggle or a single ‘good morning Mommy’ cuddle for that life.  It just forces you to look at yourself harder. It forces you to grow up because that little person is dependent on you. No one else. You. The sun rises and sets on you for them.  That’s the reality of motherhood when they’re little.

“You know nothing Jon Snow.”   To any fan of Mr. Martin’s work, you know that line.  It still makes me snicker. At 22 I knew nothing.  I didn’t know what I wanted.  I didn’t know what was right for me, for my life and yet, I kept plugging along for that little girl.   I have watched her grow, nurtured her. I taught her to read. I taught her to tie her shoes.  I taught her it was okay to cry when she needed to.  On the flip side, I taught her that not everything or everyone was worth crying over.  (I see all of you moms of little girls right now nodding your heads.  I promise, it gets better but don’t wish it away either.)

To anyone who thinks you run into motherhood prepared for anything? Let me take a minute to giggle then guffaw.  I had no idea. Most of us don’t.  Most of us Mama’s are just out here doing the best we can.  I think, for those of us who have our children in our early/mid-twenties, motherhood is as much a journey of self-discovery as growing up is for them.  You learn what you can handle.  You learn how to put yourself aside for them.    You learn what sacrifice means.  You learn what being an example means—that last one sticks rough with me.  It took me until she was six to realize that she needed a better example than what I was giving.  I hung in there through a lot of shit that I shouldn’t have.  At almost 40, I look at it now and just smile at that girl.   Without her, I wouldn’t be the woman I am.  Flaws, scars and all—to be blunt I think I’m pretty damned awesome.

And so, we learn, right?  She was learning letters and math.  I was learning what it was to build a life over again.  I was poking at old, sleeping creative giants.  I was poking at that 22-year-old who was still figuring things out and put herself on hold.  At 33 I figured it out.  I published my first book and the act satisfied something in me. I do not know if I can put words to that sense of fulfillment.  It’s like finding something you’ve waited all your life for and, when it happens, you sit just sit there.  You’re what I was missing all along.   And it’s not a person.  Hell, it’s not even anything tangible.  It’s like settling into your purpose and figuring out what that means to you.  If wishes were fishes I wouldn’t have waited that long. But the more I think about it, the more I realize that maybe it was supposed to be that way.  Did it suck at the time? Did it hurt? Oh, hells yes but sometimes I think you have to hurt to get where you’re supposed to go.  It’s the nature of life.  I think if you go through life and never hurt? You’re not really living.

So, to my little monster almost grown.  Thank you for your giggles.  Thank you for your cuddles. Thank you for the six-a.m. wake-ups because you were hungry.  Thank you for frustrating me beyond imagination.  (Yes, I know you imagine big…keep imagining pumpkin.)  Thank you for teaching me, through your own innocence, to curb my temper and impulsiveness.   Thank you for the unconditional love you’ve given me all your life.

Remember that life is a series of curveballs. Some are amazing and some are awful.  How you adapt is everything.  It will be hard.  It will be a challenge.  Keep fighting.  Never give up.  Keep laughing at the little shit.  Save your tears for the times that are worthy of them.  You come by your tenacity honestly.  Thank you for growing up with me.  Love you,  Mom.


Current listening:  “Never Enough”  Loren Allred

So today,  on H&L Writes, a challenge was given. I am not 100% comfortable with the topic but I am going to bite the bullet and give it a go.  Here’s the challenge:

Describe your greatest insecurity and why you struggle with it.

I had to think about this and decide how deep I wanted to go.  Let’s be honest. We all have insecurities. We all have things that we’re uncomfortable sharing; uncomfortable being vulnerable. That’s human nature.  That’s normal.  Anyone brave enough to broadcast that insecurity deserves a gold star and all the cookies.

Let’s go for that today, shall we?  Challenge accepted.

I fight with being enough for people.  I fight with being satisfied with relationships, friendships,  and feeling like I’ve done enough to maintain that relationship.  The people closest to me get that and don’t hesitate when I get into that headspace to let me know “okay, we’re good.”  At times the insecurity terrifies me into hiding things.  Things like “they will love me less if they see all this…chaos.”  At times, it causes me to just shut down because I get into my head that people don’t need to see me or that they won’t love the mess.

And, it’s true, some people don’t or can’t stand that messiness, that gritty reality that is life.  It took me a good portion of my life to understand that those people were not worth the time or the effort I put into it.  The people that love me—the real me,  the vulnerable, the chaotic, the emotional me—are worth that effort. But, for the longest time, I thought those people bailing on me were my fault, my doing because I just did not do enough to keep them in my life.

My husband helped me realize that thought process was utter bullshit. I still fight with it from time to time when someone new comes into my life.  I attach to people far easier than I let others believe.  In the process of that attachment, I get blind spots and do not always see the red flags.   This has gotten me hurt and heartbroken more times than I can count.  I am better about that now than I used to be.  That same insecurity caused me to push people away because I was scared.  A couple of folks broke me of that habit.   They held on when I was at my worst. They know who they are and I love them for it. They taught me, in their way, to be more secure and willing to meet people where they are rather than fussing about my role in their lives; how to just let things be what they are rather than what I think they should be.

I have always warred with the idea of being pretty enough, smart enough,  loving enough…just enough. I know this stems from a lifetime of never being good enough.  I know this stems from being told I was, at best, average, and that just wasn’t good enough. I used to think that no one would read or enjoy anything I wrote so I quit for a long time.  Those are the image issues.   I spent my life overcompensating for that imagined shortcoming.  It is liberating as hell to move beyond that.

I’ve learned not to discount my own intelligence, my perceptiveness,  my strength of will when it comes to things that -have- to be done.  I have learned that I have a very loving heart and, in the right hands, that is a very beautiful thing.  I have learned that I can be brave.  I can be funny.  I can fight like the devil if I need to.  I am still learning to be comfortable in my own skin.  I am still learning what it means to be confident in my own abilities.  It is a type of insecurity that I am fighting like hell to prevent in my own daughter.  So far, so good, I think.

A quote comes to mind:

“I did then what I knew how to do. Now that I know better, I do better.”

― Maya Angelou

And, the truth is, I do. I do better. I am working on viewing myself in a kinder light.  I am working up the confidence to step out rather than in.  Some days I do really well. Others I just royally suck.  But, like all things, this is a journey and all we can do is learn as we go.   What’s your journey like?  what does your struggle look like? Feel free to comment or share below.



In search of meaning.

Current listening:  Brave Enough – Lindsey Stirling

Choose a quote they said.  Tell us why it impacts you, they said. Challenge accepted.

H&L Writes Quote

I had to think about this awhile.  Her quotes always leave me with a minute of quiet contemplation.  The one above had me thinking for a day or so.  When I write fiction, the words always seem to flow with greater ease.  For personal essays or windows into my world,  I feel like a teenager on the edge of the dancefloor.  You know, the awkward wallflower that just stands to the side and watches?  Yeah, that’s me. So this took some time and some thinking.  Personally, I think all the best quotes do.

Being brave is hard.  Bravery, when you’re faced with loss or an outcome that you may not want, is harder still. Trusting love is one of the hardest things in the world for me to do.  This heart is scarred and so easily broken.  So to be brave beyond that heartbreak is the strongest and most worthwhile choice I can make.   To love myself,  to invest in the others who love me,  to allow myself to be loved,  those are difficulties I face day in and day out.  That quote tells me;  “One more time, rock that faith girl. You can do this.”

Life has presented me with enough challenges with love–both inner and outer–that I have wanted to run.  Who doesn’t want to pull the blanket over their heads and hide when matters of the heart force us to see things as they really are and not as we would wish them to be? I sure as hell did and have on more than one occasion.  Running has both caused and save me from heartache more than once.  So that begs the question, when is that instinct right and when are you just being chickenshit? At 39,  I am still afraid to put myself out there in ways that leave me exposed.  But,  I try.  I fail. I learn.  I still struggle with determining when it’s okay to be vulnerable. I often wonder if that’s what she meant by it.  Have the faith to keep trying, just one more time.  It’ll be worth it.

So I think a little more.  One more time,  what does that mean to you?  To me:  “Yes, this is going to hurt sometimes.  Yes, you will want to give up.  But try one more time.”  I think “one more time” encourages us to learn and grow until we are ready for that one more time, that one more chance.  Self-love and happiness, I think, are not mutually exclusive. I think “one more time” encourages us to take stock of ourselves before reaching outward.    Also, “one more time” by its very nature encourages us to forgive ourselves for transgressions against our hearts.  Let’s be honest here, who is always kind to themselves? A show of hands, anyone?  I am not. So that one more time applies to the way I talk to myself too.   For a woman who spent a hefty chunk of her life never being enough–good enough, smart enough, pretty enough–this is a hard game I play with myself.  I have to stop, take a breath and remind myself that it’s okay. I am who I am and that is exactly enough for the people that matter.


Okay, so for book news.

We are in the home stretch for approvals with Guardian’s Redemption.  These are our tentative dates for the book:

October 6:  Guardian’s Redemption Cover reveal, FB Live, 8 P.M EST.

October 20: RELEASE DAY!!! A possible group event on Facebook, times TBD (feedback/suggestions welcome)

November 3:  Release Party and signing,  Gathering Volumes, 11 A.M.- 1 P.M, EST

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Never Enough

Current Reading:  Just…take a guess. You know if you’re paying attention to these posts lol

Current inspiration:  Never Enough – Loren Allred

So this has been a very long two weeks.  Personal life has kept me from the blog and writing in general.  I have a conundrum.  readers.  I am part of two writer’s groups. Ink and Quill is mine, as many of you know but I also joined a group hosted by the amazing ladies at Holl & Lane. If you have never heard of them, check them out. There’s a brutal honesty to their magazine that I appreciate and love.  I have been a fan of the magazine since its inception.  They recently started a group titled H&L writes. It’s ten a month for a support system, prompts and article submission.  If you’re looking for a community, go for it. These guys are awesome.

So here is my conundrum,  these lovely ladies have given me a word prompt and I have an image prompt from Ink and Quill that’s been bugging me.  In part for fiction, in part for just the imagery behind it.  So…let’s do both today, shall we?

Holl & Lane has bravely asked us about fear and what it means to us.  The following is the image from Ink and Quill:


So, to me, the image holds a quiet strength in the face of adversity. To me there is a determination in this woman’s eyes that says, “You know what, screw this, I’m doing it”. Fear is normal.  Fear is healthy to a point.  Fear helps us acknowledge when we are at our limit and when we need to push forward anyway.  When the question came up on Holl & Lane, I thought about it and this acronym came to mind:

Forget Everything And Rise

I spent a large part of my life giving into that fear and never pursuing the things I always wanted. Honestly, too long and too many reflections to consider in a single blog post. So, I try.  I don’t always succeed.  I stumble but I keep going.  I refuse to give in.  If it matters, I keep fighting as long as I can.  The hardest part for me in this scenario is learning when to let it be; learning when it’s out of my hands.

I would not be where I am if I had not stopped giving in.  The older I get the more I realize how much I hate wasted time.  So, my dears this is my advice to you. Acknowledge it.  Acknowledge its purpose in the process of your life.  Keep going if you can.  If it scares you,  you move forward.  Sometimes the big scary thing isn’t as bad as you thought it might be.  Other times, you might be at the edges of your limit.  That’s why you acknowledge fear, you measure its purpose.  The choices are not always easy but what worth having really is?

That’s my take on it guys, how do you handle your fear?  Do you grab it by the horns and deal or do you take a different approach?  Tell me in the comments. 🙂

Battle Born

Current Listening:  “Battle Born”  -Five Finger Death Punch (Thank you Kymber!)

Current reading:  Yep, still working on Well of Ascension by Brandon Sanderson

So, my apologies on the radio silence.  Personal issues and editing have kept me from blogging on the regular.  However, we are back.  Ink and Quill is up and running again and hopefully we’ll gain some momentum.  Editing wise,  I see the light at the end of the tunnel for the first round. I have one chapter and an epilogue then round two. We’re getting there. There’s a scene I want to add to the prologue. My plotting wheels are turning.   A scene involving the big lug and a dream.  We’ll see how it pans out.

Also, I will be signing books at Gathering Volumes on Independent Book Store day on April 28.  I will be there from 10 until 4.  If you’re on Facebook, check out the event. Let us know you’re coming!  It should be a great deal of fun!

At any rate, on to this weeks Ink and Quill prompt.  I went with the vague prompt this week and played a bit of what if.  What would Maeseloria look like in her next generation?  How the children take over from their elders. That thought led to the following post.  Let me know what you think, guys.


“Are you planning on tickling me with that, kid?” Lily Eisen taunted her charge as they danced around the sparring circle.  The years and motherhood had been kind to her. Only tints of gray threaded her dark hair.  She saw the woman before her as the little girl she once knew riding on her father’s shoulders about Lily’s home.  The little girl had grown into an awkward teenager before Lily could blink. That teenager into the young woman before her. Lily struck hard and fast.  Her opponent’s blocks were getting better.   Early lessons had her student seeing Marcus at the end of a round for healing.

If her favorite Shadow knew what she was about right now, he could very well call Lily herself out on the yards. Fate knew they had not crossed blades in many years.  She sincerely doubted Jaylor Vincenzo allowed his combat skills to rust in the last decade or so.  Their children were growing up into what Fate would call them to be—leaders, warriors, diplomats. Lily understood the need to let them grow into those people without hinderance.  Fate knew her own daughter broke her heart any time the girl spoke of her future.

Corrine Vincenzo scowled at Lily.   She called the woman “aunt” from the moment her lips could form the word.  The needles that pinned her hair in place were a gift from the woman on her sixteenth birthday.  Her father had nearly had a conniption. The needles were coated with a nerve-numbing poison designed to paralyze an opponent.  She swung out with the dagger in her palm only to have the blade knocked from her hand with an appendage-numbing counter attack.  “Fate damn it!” Cori growled in frustration.  For the last three weeks, she had not been able to land a single strike on Lily Eisen. The woman’s laughter and taunts were infuriating.

Around them, the winds picked up.  Her Jade heritage was flaring. Fate would think since she was part Taltos she could have the advantage of not having her emotions tide to the winds within.  She muttered.  Her Jade heritage, unfortunately won out.   “Watch your temper.  Stop fighting like we’re family  otherwise you’ll never progress.  Let go Cori.  You have that liquid in you but you’re afraid to use it.”  Lily  chided her and flipped the dagger to present the weapon to Corinne.  When the girl took the dagger, the girl spun again and caught the blade on the back of Lily’s hand.  “Yes!” Lily howled in a mix of pain and laughter. She shook the slice away with a thought.  The pain was minimal but the point was made.  “Again!”

This time the lesson took and Lily watched Corrine settle into smooth strikes that Lily would swear was her family legacy. She moves like her father. Lily thought. That moment’s distraction earned another well timed, well placed strike from Corinne.  Good.  Blood trickled down her side. That called the fight.  Lily sat down hard in the sand.  “Good.” She sat there, bled and laughed.  “You have his movements about you.  Wonderful progress today. Let’s summon Marc, shall we?”

“No need.”  A voice that had Cori cringing.  “I can see to you Lils, and then take care of the insubordination of training my daughter without my explicit permission.”  Jaylor Vincenzo spoke on lethal tones.  “You knew what my answer would be if you had asked. Cori, go home. Now. I will talk to you later about this.”    The girl vanished and reappeared in her rooms at Vincenzo Manor half a realm away from Mornesse.  Jaylor looked at Lily, a girl he himself had raised from the age of six.  “Did you have to?”  He healed the slice to her side and her hand.

“Did you want her learning from someone else, Father?”


Today’s blog is brought to you courtesy of two items; a writing prompt from Ink and Quill and a photo taken by a friend of mine who just happens to be one of my readers.  He has the advantage of living in a beautiful part of our state. The moment he captured spoke to me so here we are.   Here is the Ink and Quill prompt.

Dancing: Who’s dancing and why are they tapping those toes?

Here is the image:

Near the Maumee River, sunset.   Photo taken by Nick Hendry.

The leaves crunched beneath their feet as they walked together.  Her skirts rustled to disturb the quiet peace of evening.   Who could have guessed after all this time, after all the heartache here they stood?  Nicholas looked down at the beautiful, petite woman beside him and smiled.  When a thoughtful expression crossed her features, he favored her with a puzzled look.  Alexandra’s expression meant a matter weighed heavy on her mind.  Nicholas could tell she was debating the merits of telling him.   “What troubles you, little one?”

Miles from the capital, the pair were on assignment in Swyngate.    Christiana asked them to scout ahead to help plan the Adryn progress ahead. In truth, she had asked Alexandra to take the assignement.  The Queen just allowed Nicholas to accompany his beloved rather than Marcus.  Jacob Swyngate, lord of this section of the south, was a good man who made every effort to see to their comfort and answer their inquiries. The crisp air and calmer pace gave them an opportunity to connect in a way that life in the bustling capital did not allow.  These lands, they agreed, could serve as a safe haven if needed.  Alexandra had already assured the lord that he would receive a royal visit while on progress next Adryn.

“A task ahead troubles me.” Alexandra admitted on honest tones.  “You know my dreams as of late have awakened me more than once.”  A small smile tugged at the corners of her mouth as they walked through the mid-Isean weather. Beyond them, the river rushed on and the skies glittered.  “I am afraid, Nicholas.”  As she spoke, she slid closer to him.  His warmth had the power to comfort her in a way her brother’s familiarity never did. Nicholas would never question her Fate-given duties.  Her brother would. “What is ahead may destroy what we have all worked so hard to build.”

Nicholas hugged her close and whispered. Their companionship in these last years had become an easy one.  The days of fighting each other’s pride to be together were long gone.  “Can you share your duty with me, little one?”  The fear danced across her sea-hued gaze.  Years ago, the man he was would not have offered to share the burden of Fate’s duty.   He never would have thought to.   Nicholas was raised to believe that the Sorceress’ needed none but their Knight. This woman taught him a different way to look at their realm’s structure.  This generation of royals worked as a unit to build their dreams.  Station and title meant little to them when it came to their people, their realm.  Their unity inspired him. For all that he taught them in rebuilding the realm, they taught him in return.

She stopped him at the riverside.  Beneath the dying daylight, the river glimmered silver.  Purple etched the skyline as the sun sank beneath the horizon.  “I believe I need your help.  I do not know that you could survive without knowing what will come.”   Alexandra took a breath and released it.  She had to tell him.  In her dreams, she saw his magic saving her life.  She needed to know why; so many why’s existed with this Duty.  The result could mean closure on what felt like an ages old heartache for her Queen.   “I need you this time, Nicholas. More than ever.”

On quiet tones, she outlined her dreams and what she believed Fate required of her.   As she spoke, Nicholas alternated between patient grace and absolute terror.  What she planned was an enormous risk.  If she survived, they would have answers to a problem that he knew haunted his beloved.  Also, if she survived, she would have to deal with the repercussions of her choice on multiple fronts.  If she failed, Nicholas would press on for Kira’s sake but his life would never be the same.  “Very well, little one.” He whispered and bent to kiss her as though this was the last time.  “Until that time, I will enjoy what time I have with you.”

At last, Nicholas understood her.  Nicholas understood she would do what must be done with or without him.   The best he could do was support her.  “We will steal what moments we can.”  And with that, he swept her up into a simple waltz that had her laughing.  Her laughter held its own magic for him. The stress around her eyes faded and, for this moment, she could just enjoy their new-found closeness.  “Find joy where we can until, little one.  I will not fail you this time.”  He said when their impromptu dance came to a close.  The pair continued along the riverside to plan what would come to pass.  He could prepare but the task would be hers alone.



Thanks for stopping by today gang!  Stay tuned for big news about the Guardian’s Redemption release come October!

Random sound bites

Current Listening: “Beautiful Trauma” -Pink

Current Reading:  The Well of Ascension -Brandon Sanderson

So, between life business and revisions, the blog has been quiet.  For regular readers, sorry!  A few ventures have seemed to have slipped between the cracks with this first quarter of the year. I plan on doing a newsletter revamp for those of you that might be waiting for more of Nicholas’ story.  I will say this much; Guardian’s Redemption heavily features the Taltos heritage and family.  If you read through the end of Shadow’s Journey, you might have a hunch what’s coming.

At any rate, life is finally calming down enough for me to take a breath so here we are.  Life has been crazy as of late.  I have a habit of seeing to others needs before my own and, honestly, the last couple days it’s been biting me on the ass. For those that know me well, it’s a mental check out for my sake.  Do any of you get so overwhelmed by what everyone else needs that you go into a total emotional shut down because you just can’t give anymore? What’s that like for you?

For me, it’s a hot mess of tears, a need for quiet and to be away from almost everyone for a bit. Quiet comforts, vegging out with the TV or a favorite video game.  In fact, there are very few people allowed in my bubble when I need that check out time.  For most, when I’m in this place in my head, I fake it.  I am very good at faking it if I must.   I look back on a younger me and I laugh a little. That girl would push until she blew up all over people and then have to apologize for her lash out later. In some cases that did a lot of damage to her friendships.  In fact, I can say one person has survived the turbulence of my youth in a way that strengthened our relationship instead of damaged it.   (You know who you are and when you read this I love you and thank you.)

Let’s be honest, life throws a lot of shit our way.  Some good, some bad but we still have to keep plugging away. At least, I do.  I need forward momentum. I hate to be stagnant.  I hate feeling like things are beyond my control.  Lately, a lot of things have been beyond my control.  I have just had to sit and watch and support because that’s all I can do.  Having your loved ones go through shit at a distance sucks because you can’t do as much as you wish you could.  I still insist this is the reason someone needs to invent a teleporter.  If only for the sake of my heart and sanity.  For the people I’m fussing over, you know who you are and why I’m fussing.  I honestly wouldn’t have it any other way though.

So, what’s been on your plate lately that tries to send you screaming into the night? Or that wakes you up worrying?

Your regularly scheduled creative goodness will be coming later this week.  Shout out to readers, if you want a segment for a specific character, drop me a line in the comments.  I love pulling random things together like that.  Tell me who you want to hear from.  Later guys!



The Chronicle

Current listening:   Lost Stars – Adam Levine

Current Reading:  The Well of Ascension – Brandon Sanderson

Not much to say tonight, gang. Happy Valentines day to the lot of you.  I hope you take a minute and let your loved ones know how you feel.   Do you do anything special for yourself or your loved ones?  Do you have a favorite memory?  We aren’t huge about the holiday around here.  We’re pretty low key.  For my husband and I loving each other is about the everyday gestures.  A little touch,  a kiss, shared laughter at an inside joke.   (The chicken lives! Haha, love you babe.)

At Ink and Quill this week,  I chose to go with our vague prompt.  This one I had to think about because I wanted to tie it into last week’s blog.  This ongoing story with Brona is keeping me amused.  Let’s see what happens next, shall we?


The dreams were bigger than her.  The phrase Chronicle of Light haunted her waking world.  Brona Devereaux sighed.  She sat on the highest ledge of Devereaux castle. The heights never bothered her. In fact, she found clarity more often than not observing the world from such a height and distance. Beyond her the mountains glittered beneath bright starlight above.   Her love had allowed her to escape with the promise that she would summon a healer come morning.  With exquisite care, he bound the foot and pressed a kiss to her forehead.  “Whatever Fate calls you to, little heart,  I will be here.  Tell me what you can when you can.”

His quiet confidence shook her.  Most men would not allow such secrets to stand.  Most men, she supposed did not hold the understanding of Fate that he did.  Light knew she was still learning.  She had quickly changed into a loose pair of pants and one of his shirts.  She tied the garment off at the waist then scowled when he found the sight amusing. “Oh go back to bed.”  She muttered as she left the bedchamber.

That exchange brought her to this moment and the quiet before her.  Layla would have been more decisive, she thought.  Her best friend, sister in every sense but blood,  would be more certain.  Her foot throbbed, she was confused and the night sat long before her.  The flicker of movement would have had her drawing a dagger had she not sensed his approach.  Her mental skills were improving by leaps and bounds.  She was learning to allow herself to sense who she chose when she chose.   Dominic always had a spot in her head.

“So, thank you for leaving your daggers put up,  Rae.” Dominic Devereaux smiled at his niece as he sat beside her.  “Want to talk about it or just leave it be?” He knew what the girl could do if pushed.  More often than not, he saw his sister staring out through Brona’s green eyes.  In moments like this, however, he could see the girl’s individuality.  He would never have caught his sister sitting out here alone in the middle of the night.  Raelynn, her grandmother,  would have sought his comfort or Nicholas’ .  Brona did not have that level of trust in him yet.

“Dom, what is a Chronicle of Light? Do you know?”  Brona asked suddenly.  In truth, she did not want to bother her grandfather until she had no other option.   Nicholas had enough responsibilities to the realm without the added trouble of her dreams.  The phrase and that redhead appeared in her dreams more frequently in recent weeks.  She had yet to understand why. The woman remained unaware of Brona’s presence as she went about her task.   Her uncle refused any familial acknowledgement.  He feared she would slip and the truth of their name and her relation would come to light.  Both Dominic and Nicholas agreed the girl deserved a better life than the one Dominic made for himself among the shadows.

“I believe, if my memory serves, that the title has to do with your Taltos heritage.”  Dominic said as he slid an easy arm around her to comfort her. He was saddened at the tension in her until he felt her relax into his side.  “You know Nicholas would be a better resource.”  The stubborn expression she flashed him earned a grin.  “Fine,  I’ll see what I can remember.  The Chronicle of Light, if I recall is an old term for those who are tasked with following another’s journey.  They are a record.  For what specifically, I cannot be sure.  I was only ever given a general education regarding the Taltos family titles and heritage.  There has not been a Chronical since the old bastard and I were children so I cannot be sure what exactly it means for you.”

“I think it’s bigger than me.  Part of me,” As she spoke,  Brona pushed a lock of her chocolate colored hair out of her face.  A frustrated huff left her throat when the words stuck.  “Part of me belongs to the realm and that frightens me. I’ve never belonged anywhere, Dom.”    Her eyes skimmed the horizon. The cold and starlight eased her for whatever reason.  A lone cloud crossed the empty sky.  With a small push of her will, she disbursed the water within the cloud.  It ceased to mar the night’s quiet beauty.

“That, my beloved girl, is the battle of all Fate’s children.  You will learn in time.  Be patient.”  Dominic hugged her and settled in beside her until she fell asleep against his side.  A small smile curled his lips as another touched the back of his mind.  Fate knew the twins were protective of one another. This new level of worry amused him. “She is fine, my little warrior. Tell your brother to stand down.”









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